Introduction:

In 1983, Zhang Kesha made a decision that almost no one dared to make at the time — a path destined for solitude. She chose to follow her heart, moving from "he" to "she," yet from then on she found herself surrounded by bewildered looks and labeled an "outcast." To escape prejudice and discrimination, Drifted from her hometown in Hunan to Hong Kong, Taiwan and the US, carefully guarding her past as she pursued a career and love. Yet time and again, whenever her identity was exposed, she found herself in trouble. Unable to withstand years of blackmail and online harassment, exhausted in body and mind, she was eventually forced to leave her homeland far behind...

In 2003, she married her American husband, Bruce, and in a foreign land she slowly regained stability, striving to become a respected philanthropist. Once life calmed down, the thought buried deep in her heart quietly stirred again — she longed to reclaim her name, to be seen by her homeland and embraced by the land of her birth. She tried to gain "fame" in various ways, but what she truly wanted was simply a measure of recognition from her homeland.

Then her husband's passing shattered the peace she had worked so hard to regain. A year later, in her sixties, she publicly declared her wish to "marry back into China" — her deep longing for acceptance and a sense of belonging in her homeland remained an unfulfilled wish. And it was right then that her health took an unexpected turn: the lingering risks of the surgery she had undergone years before meant she had to face another operation...

She has paid too much for this choice over the course of her life, yet Zhang Kesha has never regretted becoming a woman. For her, staying true to herself is the most precious thing in life.